When I was living in Edmonton, and when I was thinking about becoming a writer, I was already a few years in to one of my favorite addictions.  Castle.  Now, I had been “writing” for a lot longer than Castle has been out, but it definitely didn’t hurt in swaying me to want to aspire to do more with it.

Every year, usually in the summer before the first new show of the season was to come out, I would pull out all of my dvd’s of the previous seasons and binge watch them all.  It was partly to stay familiar with the show, but more than anything it forced me to have some mental down time.  Time that was spent alone in my office away from all the schoolwork and drama that life tends to throw my way.  It was a way to lift my mind out of the every day and recharge my creative juices, as it were.  I would watch Castle and another show, Fringe, religiously as each episode made its way onto my DVR.  I am a big fan of good tv shows and movies.  I have a decent-sized collection of dvd’s that includes tv shows that I love to binge watch and movies that I have watched more than once (some of them 100’s of times *cough* Hackers *cough).

But I have yet to have a binge watch of any of my favorite shows, since moving back to the U.S..  There are a number of reasons why this is probably the case, and I’m sure a lot of them have to do with all of the things that have happened with my family over the past couple of years.

I have given up on trying to return to a life that I once had, and instead take all of the amazing things that I used to do and include them with the amazing things that I currently do and, in the future, want to do.

This is all a part of me finally deciding that now is the time to move on with the life I, and my wife, want to live.  I know that there will be a great deal of things that will need to be adjusted from time to time, but I am wanting to capture the same feeling I had when I was aboard the ship, back in September, when I finally had a bit of peace in my life.  When I was writing, and reading, and watching movies, and living a life that is full of the things that make me who I am.

And so in honor of all this, I have started (actually I started it a few days ago and am done with the first season) binge watching Castle.

There are more things to be done, and I will deal with them in due time.  But for now, it is time to raise my head above the noise and drama and live in the reality of the life that I want to live.  If people want to come along…great.  But I, and my wife, are moving on with our lives.  I can’t continue to wait for something else to happen.  I can’t sit and worry about the things that others do and put my life on hold, because they make poor decisions.

It was funny, because I happened to be watching a show on “Generation X” and there was a part in it that was talking about the war on drugs, and how the government chose to start a campaign against drugs with the slogan, “Just Say No.”  Of course, the typical response to this, in hindsight 30 years later, was to laugh at it and say just how ridiculous it was and how little effect it had.  But aren’t we just betraying just how hard it is to say “No” to something?  Aren’t we, essentially, justifying how weak we are and that there is no series of words or sayings that can change the harsh reality of just how decayed our society is?  And I am always reminded by the people who actually did say “No” to the things that would harm their future.  How people who just say “No”, today, are the ones who are successful at the things they set their minds to.

If I want to be successful, I have to continually fight against the societal norms that say that I am not going to be successful at what I want to do.  Thankfully, I have a lot of years of my life that say that I can be successful at the things I put my mind to.  It’s when I don’t think I am worthy of being successful that I start to slide.

So with that…it’s time to start Season 2.

 

See you soon!!!!

Advertisements